Friday, August 20, 2010

Things I want to share....

I promised myself that I wouldn't go another month without posting here...and yet, I did. By the thought and theories of living in the present moment, I guess I could say, I made it in time. My feelings say something else.

So, I'm here again to ponder the term "fearless creativity".
In my own life, I acknowledge myself for showing up to a showing of my own work in Memphis. My friend, Lynn, opened her home to my art on her walls!

...AND a good time was had by all.... a night filled with incredible energy. Lynn brings that energy where ever she goes....and so does her home...and her dog.

Just showing up was filled with angst and concern...the kind that I really needed to squelch from the beginning. Why I felt those feelings (like nervous about reactions to my artwork)...AND why I feel the way I really difficult for me to explain.

As it is with all of us.
So....for today...I bring you Beth hart:
Someone who can put the feelings that she does into her artwork...AND then put it out there for all to see...well, I think she is fearless and very creative in a raw way.

Hopefully my next blog entry will have some of my work on it....that is my intention as soon as I figure out the photo transfer thing from my camera.
Light and Love, Josie

Saturday, July 17, 2010

What is important...really?

I'm watching a computer die. It's one that has served me well...and even as I write this, I'm wondering when it will freeze. I started thinking, over the past few days away from my facebook friends, about what I want to do on my computer...given the little time that I have before she dies. I took for granted the times playing solitare and times locked in scrabble games which are now at a stand still. I feel lost without my FB network...and yet, this breakdown of my old "Mable" has given me time to think. It's time for me to come back my blog...where only a few see and read. It's not so public. Even if I post a link on FB to my blog, only a few will visit. It's my little online island.

That said, here is my share for tonight:

Love y'all.... Josie

Monday, April 26, 2010

This is from the heart....

I am counting down the minutes to creating a show in Memphis Tennessee. It is in the town where I was born and it holds so many tales. I was moved from there when I was nine months old to Chicago.

I fell in love with Chicago from the moment they said 'go'. I started selling art on the streets at age five...instead of lemonade. It was not sticky like lemonade and I liked it ...a lot! I had a great mentor named James Swann. He gave me supplies like "mat board" to do my work. He also gave me paints and markers. He was the best!

Sometimes, it takes just one person to light the fire of creativity under one little kid's soul... today's world, that would be the Art Teacher...or the Music teacher...

let's remember that when we vote ....ok?
I say that because our state is grappling with budget cuts...and guess who gets the axe?
Yep...the arts!

WELL... right after mental health that is...

Our State is making mental health cuts that would spin the head of any civil minded human who cared for anything "living".
I am interested in finding a way to help those who fall thru the cracks...any ideas?


Friday, April 9, 2010

Patsy Rodenburg: Why I do theater | Video on

Patsy Rodenburg: Why I do theater | Video on

This is what I found to be fearless tonight. I have done a tiny bit of theater and a bit of performance art over the years.
Her descriptions...her truth...LOVE IT!


Thursday, April 8, 2010

I am grateful for friends!

In the past few weeks, I have been pushing myself to get up and get up and feed the get up and find something to embrace. It hasn't been easy but there is always something or someone that crosses my path and reminds me of why I'm here...usually, it's friends. I posted this group/song a while back on Facebook before my surgery...while I was looking back, it hit me that this was the piece I wanted to post here.

Since I posted it on FB, so many things have happened. My mind is reeling with thoughts of all of the unexpected's that ending up in the hospital multiple times...and then being told I have skin cancer which took three times to get it all.... and I still can't wrap my mind around any of it. Today, I received a letter from a dear old friend. It was sent through snail mail...a delight from the old days. I was reminded of something that happened a long time ago that was lost deep within the basement in my mind. It was a good memory....which are few and far between for someone who has had so much damn trauma in her life. Don't get me wrong... I'm not a victim...I'm a survivor! Few of you know all of it which can be a gift and a curse.

What I like about this version of this song by this band is that they're doing it in memory of a friend. I'd love to do something like this for the loved ones I've lost recently....funny how I think of that after the fact...after their gone. I've been working, for the past few years, at remembering how important it is to let the people I love know that I love them while I'm still here...while their still here. I fall short so much of the time. There are so many people that I want to put their face in my hands and tell them how amazing they are and how they make my heart feel so good. I want to kiss their sweet little head and bless them for all of their days to come. And then, life happens and I forget to do that...and sometimes it's just too late and then they're gone...right before our eyes.

So, my message tonight is...don't wait until it's too late.

for all my friends....I love you!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Mornings are dark again....time to press snooze.

Well, our time has changed. What used to be 6am is now 7am but it still looks like 6am in the sky....with the dark before morning feel. I had the hardest time waking up today. It's like I just took a flight to another time zone and the "news" plays way later than it should be. You see, I live in the central time zone so any trip to the coast is a trip with time....changing my little clock...the tiny one that sits by the bed right next to the hotel clock that I never trust.

Why do we have to do this time change thing? Why can't we trust the sun to come around when she needs to be there? I've never understood it. I know the reasons that are told to me and all that .... but really, isn't this all man made....the need to control light?

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Living Fearlessly

There are some days when life just zings along no problem and then there are the "other" days. I've had a few of those days when walking feels like pouring molasses in January. Today is one of those. It's days like today I have to remind myself of the things that I'm grateful for and of the small steps I have taken even though it feels like I'm miles from the finish line....But that's just it...there is no finish line. As long as we are breathing, there is no end to the race. So each day we get to choose the race we enter to some extent. Life sends us twists and turns and we lean from side to side so we don't tip the canoe. Living fearlessly means the river can get rough and even if we swamp...we still swim to the bank, gather our goods and start again. Tomorrow is another fact, tomorrow is another month. Welcome March!
Here's to a spring with renewed life, renewed gratitude, renewed health!

Here's a song I picked for today....enjoy!
xo Josie

Monday, February 15, 2010

February 15, 2010... and another thing.

Today I'm sitting here missing my dog Scout. He was rushed to the doggie hospital yesterday after he took a hard fall. Scoutie is an old boy so I think it was really hard on him. It's funny how we get used to certain things when it comes to our animals. For me, all day long I find myself looking for him, reaching for him...I even started fixing his breakfast before I realized he wasn't here. Like so many things, we don't realize the whole left until they're not here. After twelve years he leaves a large hole when he is gone. So, I'm praying that he starts to recover on his own and will come back to me soon. Until then, here are a couple of photos of my baby...

Other news in the Sullivan home....I can drive now! I got my release from the Dr. today so watch out Columbia, I'm back on the road again!
Gratefully, Josie

Saturday, February 6, 2010

February 8, 2010 ...Healing.

I'm Back!!!!!

A friend of mine reminded me of one of my entries long ago on this blog a couple pages down. She was drawn to Oct. 8th where I talk about reaching out and how difficult that can be when using other than face to face interaction. She copied it to me and gave me my words back to me. It was a gift to remember exactly what was happening then and the awareness of being in such a different place now.
For those of you who have followed my surgery and been supportive during such a difficult time, THANK YOU! You know who you are! It has been a trying three weeks. I was released from the hospital on January 15th. A few days later, I was rushed back to the hospital for complications. I had been thrown into a severe round of migraines which I am still fighting. I was released again in a few days only to be home around 36 hours and back to the hospital for a few more grueling days of pain. I'm sitting here trying to think of words to describe this whole thing...and I just can't find the right ones.
This recovery time has found me very antsy to be well...To be back to full speed. My body has another idea. I am learning to be still which feels impossible. I've spent some time sketching and I think I'll just include some of those images and call it a night. Today is a melancholy day and I want to snuggle up with my dog and go to sleep. So, here are some of the images coming out during a time when the pain has been at it's worst. Thank you for taking time to visit my blog! I plan to be posting more often now that the healing process has begun.

Monday, January 11, 2010

January 11, 2010

I have not been able to really describe what is happening and what I am's just driving me mad. I listen to music to "soothe the soul" to say..... I want to share it...and yet I want to share this......happy music later.... this is my favorite movie for it's time....and the love shared here is what I want to share tonight.

Friday, January 8, 2010


Counting down the days and doing the things that I NEED to do. I'm also spending endless hours or at least minutes playing three towers solitaire on facebook. It's one of the things that takes my mind away for a while.

Music also helps me focus, process and feel. So sometimes ...HA...a lot of times I feature music here on my blog. I find musicians to be totally fearless! While I love living in and exploring the visual world, I appreciate the world of sound as another kind of goodness outlet.

Here's my pick for old favorite.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Thursday January 7th 2010- info on surgery

Yesterday I went for my meeting with the neuro surgeon (Dr. Ryan) to discuss the procedure. I came home feeling completely ill. I am confident in my two surgeons and have heard nothing but great things about both of them. There is great comfort in that! However, my little fear gremlin is running around the house willy nilly. Here's what brought that little guy in yesterday... they will have to make an incision in my stomach to take fat (there's lots to choose from) and it will be used to pack my head where they go in to grab the tumor. The other thing I did not know is that they will be putting a valve in my spine in case of a spinal leak. Those two things were new to me. On the bright side, I have an extreme deviated septum which the ENT will fix on their way out of my head. Two surgeries for the price of one....yay!

I will be setting up a group on Facebook that anyone can join for updates while I'm in the hospital. I am blessed with many FB friends that are praying and sending good energy to me and the doctors. The challenge for me is trusting that all will be fine. That is what I call living fearlessly. One step at a moment at a time...letting go and letting God. Another challenge is asking for help during and after surgery. I won't be able to drive for at least two weeks after being home which cramps my independent style. There are so many lessons coming out of this! My prayer is that I can see the goodness in all of them. A friend of mine busted me on the phone the other night about taking care of myself first at this time. While we were on the phone, I got a couple of calls from friends who needed me...and I can easily focus on them rather than my own stuff. Today, I am thankful that I have people in my life that will call me out on my own avoidance of reality.

Let the people you love know it...that's my wisdom never know.
Lots of love and gratitude!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

What a day.....

...I started the day chasing a was right there.
I even put my new "dream book" under the pillow that Scout sleeps against so that I can grab it..just in case. ...

Well, after the dream scuttled out of the house through all of the quick & twisted corridors, I had to face the day. It was a day of seeing Doctors...accepting help from a friend who was and is amazing!
... having freaky photos done of my head...inside out....blood test..urine..chats with an anesthesiologist about the "wheezing".... gracious...I'm finally done with this 28 hour day....

BTW- The Punch Brothers are playing here on Wednesday night at the Missouri Theatre... I highly recommend! Here's a taste ...a tiny little bitty tiny little taste...but one of my favorites. Get your tickets soon.

XO Josie

Sunday, January 3, 2010

She fights in her sleep...

This is a find that I think is totally worthy of sharing...

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year!

I'm so thankful to be welcoming in 2010 tonight! The past year was filled with ups and downs and all arounds. I am taking stock tonight of the past 365 days. There are lots of things I would've done differently and many that I'd never change. I like the sound of 2010 (twenty-ten) and of itself the sound is different than the past 9 years. It's still amazing to me that I made it to the 2000's. I can remember in college in the 80's talking about how "OLD" we would be in the year 2000. We chatted about the Jetsons. Well, that never happened much to my dismay.

Some years I've had the feeling like I wish I could go back. Not this one. I want to move forward...forge ahead...ha! pun intended considering the surgery coming up.

Here's a pick of music in honor of the "blue moon".....

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I'm finally feeling all of this *#@! fearlessly!

When I started this blog, I imagined images of "fearless creativity". I could see the visual creativity. Well, after all that's my thing. I can also hear creativity...even louder when it's FEARLESS. I can hear it in a conversation...sometimes it's the calmest voice of the group. I didn't grow up with the "fearless" voice being the softest. No, in fact, it was quite the opposite.

My intention here was to offer ideas and incentives to be fearless in your own life. As my own interests grew larger and I had my own studio, I lost that mission along the way. I'm not downgrading my blog in any way...mind that! I think that I have shared some absolutely precious finds! There are things in the bowels of this blog that will scratch on the inside of your skull! I am proud of those and they will remain in the "older posts".

Now, I am looking to share more of my thoughts and personal ....personal...personal... geez. What is it. LIFE...that is quite personal. Ok, of today, I am dealing with a scary thing. It was scary two years ago and then it was not. It was just a thing then. A yearly thing....kinda like a pap smear. Only this was an MRI of my brain. The first two years gave me the feeling like it was smooth sailing all the way to Greece (my dream after watching 'Shirley Valentine' ). Anyway, this year the MRI showed that this little growth had flowered in my brain. After all the tending of that cantaloupe in my garden that yielded nothing, and still my brain had another idea. Well, so here I am with this years growth. I wanted it to be something better okra or more tomatoes or squash that didn't rot from alien bugs that came from the next yard I'm sure.

All that to say, my brain is working over time and my garden is perishing. So, I have a growth that has to be pruned on the most important bulb of my brain. It's going to happen on January 12th. I don't know about fearless "creativity" but I do know that this is fearless living. I am trusting in the kindness of friends and strangers to help me step up to the to say. In the next two weeks I will go through tests and meetings and a CT scan to prepare...and I will come back here...maybe not to lay it all out so much as to share what little thing or sound or artwork helped in that day at that time. So, if I put up a link that touches me for that day...well, I hope it touches you too!

With tears,

Thursday, November 12, 2009

First Lesson: Life is Real

For those of you who enjoyed "Ayo" can look her up on youtube. The video was blocked eventually and I will delete this at some time. However, I heard from so many of you that I thought I might put up this notice. While I was trying to change it up and offer the all disappeared. So sorry!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Just Sayin'

In a minute and a half this man has a lot to say.

Thought for the day:

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

What's your life theme song?

There are times when I wonder what my life theme song would be. Sometimes I think about it as the song of the day...theme of the day or week or month. And then there's the "life" theme song...the one I strive towards...the one I also fail at and then get to learn more life lessons.
So, this is one of my top three
Life theme songs.

Be fearless,

Saturday, October 10, 2009

King Tubby...this is how it is right now.

Visually, this is what it feels like in my life right now. The music piece is "Take Five" by Dave Brubeck which was one of my mother's favorites. So, when I heard the back up to this crazy wonderful video...well, I just had to feature it here...during a crazy weekend. It's Artrageous weekend here in Columbia. I invite you to watch and listen to this bit I've posted...and enjoy!
Be Grateful,

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

and the rest of the story....

I just realized how long it's been since I've posted. My computer was down for two weeks and I became quite complacent in the non techno world. Also, in the meantime I've traveled to Kentucky and participated in an art show there. I met some of the most wonderful women in Ky. who treated us like gold. I also met blogging buddies for the first time. We've blogged together on and formed a bond in "wow's" early days. I hope to see them again soon!

On the art front, my website is updated now. http// It shows more of my current work. I also put all of the work available on facebook; however, the colors are muted there. I'm looking into places I can share photos without losing the color quality. My work is often vibrant and I'd love to be able to share it online as such.
Until then, let me share this with you....
another great find on Youtube....

I'll be back sooner this time around,

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Elizabeth Gilbert - Nurturing Creativity

I wrote a long intro to this woman and just deleted it by choice. If you have read "Eat, Pray, Love", you will enjoy this talk...if you are an artist, I think you will really enjoy this talk....If you are creative in anyway...check it out!
Get a cup of tea and take a short break...


Dare to be fearless!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Carol Burnett - comedy and improv.....

What a pair of creative women!
I would love to have laughter as my biggest problem in getting a piece of work done!
Hee hee. Enjoy!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Here's a wonderful group of people who've come together to do such a wild, crazy, beautiful piece of performance art! They are fabulous. I found myself laughing and wanting to get up and dance ...but I couldn't because I had to stay and see the details. I would have LOVED to be in this Central Station in Belgium that day! One of the things that I adore about being born on Oct. 1st is that Julie Andrews was as well... and she is one of my heroes.

I love and appreciate what these folks did with her song from the Sound of Music....

Enjoy! Smile!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Street Art....

I found this while going through a myriad of saved up treasures for my blog. This one inspires me because he is using what he has and making the most of it.
AND it pays off. He got it! He has delighted so many people.

It's great fun to hear laughter when someone is viewing one of my lighthearted pieces. It's also great to hear the sigh when they connect with a more serious...more emotional piece. I think the streets of a busy city (and I have lived in a few) need more work like this to surprise the endorphins out of the folks so innocently and often anxiously walking by.
I give this a big thumbs up on being fearlessly creative!